Tag: Self

Things Unsaid

There are many things I’d like to say to you

The fact that I was lying

To your face

For the majority of my life

That I loved you

And hated you

Equally and simultaneously

That I wished you were more

Than the man you thought you were

And would become the man you always dreamed of

And I want to

Be honest with you

For the first time in my life

Tell you that I care

About every hurtful word

You threw my way

And I would

Change the past

To change the future

And make the present right

But I can’t

Because

You’re

Not

Here.

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Valediction of a Chapter In Life

Gone are the days of independence

traded for housework

And new life goals

Of creating a family

And earning success.

 

No more immature debauchery,

Finished with pearls,

Longer hemlines

And modest necklines.

 

I miss the days

Of reckless fun,

But I’ve moved up

And on

And traded it for self love

And you.

Great Potential

There lay

A sleeping babe

So sweet and innocent

Coddled by his single mother

Alone.

 

He was

A dreaming boy

That dreamt of peace and love

Though he did not yet understand

What is.

 

Sweet love,

Dreaming of hope,

With the strongest power

Of changing the world for better

For all.

 

This boy

Although naive

Would surely learn his power

To create a world of great joy

So soon.

 

He will

Help his mother

‘Til the day he is strong

Enough to rid the world of bad

For us.

 

There lay

A dreaming boy

With the strongest power

To create a world of great joy

For us.

 

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Life Changes

So you want to be happy, but don’t know how?

Well here’s the reason why:

You’re too distracted with the thought

Of skin rubbing, thigh to thigh

And stop telling yourself that things will change on their own

Because you know that’s a lie

You have to ignore the naysayers

Critiquing you as you walk by

That’s the first step to accepting

A brand new way of life

And changing your habits one by one

Slowly saying goodbye

To the you that you used to be

And hello

To the you

That has reached

The sky.

 

How To Build Yourself From Scratch

A good foundation- two feet planted firmly on the ground

Adequate strength- to carry the weight of yourself and others (others are optional)

A mind of your own- a brain that will lead you away from the hive

Emotion- a determining factor of a healthy soul

 

It might not seem like much,

But when you add them all together,

You’ve built yourself

A modest home.

 

 

 

Death Pact Angel of Orzhova

I stand on a concrete ledge

Staring at the ground below

My translucent tattered wings spread out behind me

Refracting light at all angles

That makes the alley beneath me glow

As it calls out to me

If you fall, I’ll be here to catch you.

 

My wings were strong once

And they would carry me on the lightest of winds

But I had fallen

Madly and deeply in love

For a man that couldn’t see my potential

And all that I could be.

He clipped my wings and made me his

But what have I had since then?

My immortality has caused me to lose my love

And now I’m forever lost.

 

I’ll have one last flight

One last chance to soar

And feel freedom kiss my cheeks.

 

These thoughts slowly push me closer to the edge

Until I let myself go.

This is my mental undoing, I think

As my body crumbles to pieces from the impact-

And although I can feel pain, I cannot ever truly die

So I will lie here with tattered wings and broken bones

Until someone finds me and patches me up

Only for me to try again.

From One To The Next

A family so complete

Every member an active participant

Of holding love in their arms

And virus-like happiness in their eyes

Contagious… spreading

To your own heart within minutes

And turns your recently icy demeanor

From the frost burns

Of your former father

To an overwhelming boil

As passion flares

And warms you throughout.

Set Fire

A woman

Left with no more hope

Said goodbye to the life she’s always known

Watching her memories burn

Creating her own path

With a blazing trail behind her

She set fire to her past

And told herself

To never look back.

Vacant

She approaches the vacant bed

With caution

And reflects

On all of the late nights

The requests

For him to crawl in next to her

And wrap his arms around her

A warmth that only he could provide

He did this to himself

She thinks

As she climbs inside

Pulls the freshly laundered sheets up to her neck

Where they lie

With a cold but comforting touch

I’m here for you

As she creates her linen cocoon

And drifts to sleep

Without him.

Set Free

I have peace of mind

Being at peace with myself

After such a long time

Spent longing for forgiveness

When all along it was there

And I just needed to request it-

Ask and you shall receive

Repentance falling into your lap

I am forgiven-

At least forgotten-

But I’ve been released

I am free.