On my own again
Stranded on an island
Of my thoughts-
The waters that surround me
Are currents of my memories,
Swirling whirlpools of chaos
Keeping me isolated.
I can’t escape
The dangerous waves of
“What ifs”
Formed with the wind and the choices of my past-
But I’ll construct
My escape from this godforsaken island
With a study raft of good intentions
And move forward on unsteady waters
To a new world yet unexplored.
I have peace of mind
Being at peace with myself
After such a long time
Spent longing for forgiveness
When all along it was there
And I just needed to request it-
Ask and you shall receive
Repentance falling into your lap
I am forgiven-
At least forgotten-
But I’ve been released
I am free.
A hand that caresses my face
With long fingers full of grace
And makes me think your hurt is erased
Even though it’s not.
A cascade of words that fall to the ground
Repelled by your cold gaze and piling up in a mound
But I still think I’m strong enough to make a sound
Even though I’m not.
A laugh that tickles my ear
Sends a chill down my spine when I hear
For it makes me think that you are near
Even though you’re not.
All the things I wish I could say
To turn back time and find a new way
To make me think that we’re okay
Even though we’re not.