Her scales-
A delicate balance
Between lust&grace
And a fatal endless agony
Smooth to the touch
Thick as the fear and desire
Her forked tongue tastes
In the air.
She’s beautiful
And she’s got her sights set on you.
She’s poised
Statuesque
But before you know it
She strikes
Leaving you
Without the hope of survival.
In the end, there’s just
Me
Allow yourself to see it from my view:
Love is something you lose yourself in
Regret is when you realize, too late that
Everything has changed
And instead of losing yourself, you lost me.
Dreams are haunting your waking hours with
Yearning, but nothing can be changed.
Go on, move forward. There’s
Only so much more that can be done when
Never means forever and
Everything we had is lost.
Fingers laced
Hearts paced
About to kiss, my mind slips
My heart skips
As the truth nears
And all my fears disappear
When you pull me back
To the reality I lack
As your thumb traces my chin
I can’t help but grin as you pull me in
I admit defeat and our lips meet.
The magical sensation
Of instant gratification.
I must have hit my head falling for you
In this world that is brand new.
Searing pain
Surging through my body-
A toxin tainting my lips.
I can’t speak…
My tongue
Like an anchor
Attached to a ship
That’s been destroyed
By your cannons.
Self inflicted punishments
Punishing a wounded soul.
Soulfully devoting kindness
Kindly protecting others
Otherwise left forgotten and alone…
Alone in abandonment…
Abandoned, with long forgotten hope,
Hopelessly she falls
Falling toward an invisible self.
An injury
Leading to a downward spiral
Of emotional and physical debt
A black hole
One struggles to crawl out of
Muscles straining
Aches blossoming
But be careful not to misstep,
Lest you slip
And fall back in.
Time has progressed
But no wounds have healed
The pain that was hidden
Comes with a vengeance
Twisting needles in your spine
Twisting
And twisting
While you wither away
And slowly disintegrate
Until finally
You no longer
Exist.
Secrets shared
From misheard statements
Creating false beliefs
That spread
Like an illness
Crushing ecosystems
And organisms
Standing in its path
Hoping to create a barrier
To save society
But the illness grows
Overcomes
And swallows it whole.
I know now
That I’m the one to blame
For all of the misunderstandings
And creating a rift
That kept growing
Until it was so large
That both of us collapsed in its depths.
I know now
That my actions are irreparable
In your eyes
But that won’t stop me
From trying to say sorry
From trying to sew up the wounds
That are evident all over my body
And have yet to scar.
I know now
That it takes two people
To make a heart break
And also two people
To put the pieces back together.
I also know
That you will never forgive me
That you’ll go on with your life
And I’ll go on with mine
Wondering
Do you ever think of me?
Are you happy with the way your life turned out?
Are you happy without me?
For the simple reason
That you despise me so much
To the extent of withholding yourself
Of the apology you deserve.
Relief is what I’m supposed to feel,
But I feel none.
I want to feel numb
My body becoming a shell, protected
From any hurt that could possibly come my way,
My body enveloped in a shield.
I want to feel better
Be on the path for recovery
A better, fuller life.
But all I feel is pain.