Dependency

Loss of reliability

Feeling of inadequacy

Suffering emotional instability

For this lack of reality

From this chemical dependency.

Pain

Self inflicted punishments

Punishing a wounded soul.

Soulfully devoting kindness

Kindly protecting others

Otherwise left forgotten and alone…

Alone in abandonment…

Abandoned, with long forgotten hope,

Hopelessly she falls

Falling toward an invisible self.

An ink scarred hand

Clutching my throat

With the slightest pressure

Causing my windpipes

To be silent

As the image of you

On top of me

Pinning me down

And leaving me without oxygen

Is forever engraved

In the deepest and most sacred

Cavities of my brain.