High notes ring softly
In a repetitive rhythm
Encouraging the bass to bellow.
Together they play
In perfect harmony
In perfect cacophony
A welcoming sound
I’ve known for years.
The dependent treble falters…
Then frenzies until it unexpectedly ceases-
An angelic absence
Leaving the bass notes to calmly tremble,
A deep
Resounding
Heartbeat.
A familiar song
I’ll never forget.
For my Grandmother,
You’ll always be in our hearts
5/1/15
Searing pain
Surging through my body-
A toxin tainting my lips.
I can’t speak…
My tongue
Like an anchor
Attached to a ship
That’s been destroyed
By your cannons.
Palm fronds
Brushing against the house
With the persuasion of the wind
A caress from nature
Protecting the family inside
From the dangers of the world.
Loss of reliability
Feeling of inadequacy
Suffering emotional instability
For this lack of reality
From this chemical dependency.
Stuck inside my mind
Behind a two-way mirror
No body
No name
Visible from the outside
Through my glassy eyes
That watch the world pass by.
The sound of metal colliding rings in my ears
And all I see is white.
The stretcher, the walls,
The bright light calling to me
As I scream for you.
Lying five feet away,
You’re so close
But these walls separating us
Keep me from whispering your name…
From trying to hold your once warm body
In my decaying arms.
I’ve lost all hope of being with you
As I lie here, waiting for an eternity to pass
Inside a plot under a headstone.
It is cold
Dreary damp and dark
Nothing to keep me company
But the absence of
Your smiles as a tickle touches your sides
Brought from unexpected fingers
Your eyes as they stare deeply into mine
Telling each other secrets of their own
Your hand grasping mine
A lifeline holding me next to you
Grounded in our world
Your laugh as it sings melodies into the air
A tune I would often long to hear
You. Only a memory
That I can’t hold on to
Beyond this journey
From life to… The unexpected.
You’re alive while I’m here.
You are lost to me
But I”ll be here
Waiting for you to join me.
Greet you with
All the joys we once shared.
You will find me
And we will
Never be lost again.
She knows me
For she shows me
How I should be
How I could be.
And she’s caught me
And she’s taught me
What I could know
What I should know.
But here I am,
Alone, I am-
So I’ll cry (not for a lover)
For my mother.
A child’s mind cracked open wide
For learning and growing
Walking all alone, their own stride
With confidence showing.
But soon they will grow much too big
And forget their own self.
They will have to search hard and dig,
Wiping dust off the shelf.
They will look back with a smile
On all the things they learned-
How could they forget? A long while…
My, how the tables turned!
http://www.napowrimo.net/ NaPoWriMo prompt for day 25. Catching up! 😉
There are many things I’d like to say to you
The fact that I was lying
To your face
For the majority of my life
That I loved you
And hated you
Equally and simultaneously
That I wished you were more
Than the man you thought you were
And would become the man you always dreamed of
And I want to
Be honest with you
For the first time in my life
Tell you that I care
About every hurtful word
You threw my way
And I would
Change the past
To change the future
And make the present right
But I can’t
Because
You’re
Not
Here.