There are many things I’d like to say to you
The fact that I was lying
To your face
For the majority of my life
That I loved you
And hated you
Equally and simultaneously
That I wished you were more
Than the man you thought you were
And would become the man you always dreamed of
And I want to
Be honest with you
For the first time in my life
Tell you that I care
About every hurtful word
You threw my way
And I would
Change the past
To change the future
And make the present right
But I can’t
Because
You’re
Not
Here.